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Midterms are not entirely over but my next one isn't until two weeks after I get back. Right now I'm just relaxing and getting ready to head up to Canada. I've still got one more essay left to do before I leave but I'm going to do that tomorow; I feel like I've earned the right to be a little lazy. ^_^ I got my Russian midterm back I got a 97 on it. I also got an A on my Tolkine midterm. I just took History of social thought exam, I haven't gotten my lit paper back, I haven't taken my developmental Psyc one yet and I got a B in child Psych. That's everything I think. ^_^ Now for some well deserved R & R before I start packing on Monday. I've got a whole list of things to do that day but I'll cover them on Monday. ^_^

I'm surprised I'm as awake as I am considering I was up until 2 in the morning last night. I tried to go to sleep earlier because I knew I'd need it but I couldn't. I haven't fallen asleep easily since I was 13. I alternated between trying to sleep and getting up for tea until everyone ended up piling up in the bedroom. One of my friends was really upset and had come to visit in the hopes of improving his spirits. We ened up sitting around swapping funny stories for a little while, some new some olf but it was a lot of fun. ^_^ I've always had a soft spot for stories.

I called the Dr. Today and schedualed an apointment. Hopefully he can look at my MRI and tell me I'm fine and then my other doctor will finially put me on the pill. I am so tired of having my pirod almost endlessly it's not even funny. I suppose a lot of my ailments are related to stress in a way because they seem to eb once I'm relaxed. I've been working on that.

My first two things I'm working on it trying to do all things, classwork and slash, in reasonable moderation so that I don't let classwork overwhelm me and I don't miss out on goo slash. ^_^

My next challenge of the moment is trying to work through some of my issues with parents and what not. Odly enough Brian from QAF helps alot. He has some of the best inspirational lines.

"So in order for Justin to live here he has to cast off all of his personal values and belifes and pretend to be someone he's not? That's not love, that's hate."


"They cause their own pain just like everybody else."

"It's not lying if they make you lie, if the only truth they can belive is their own."

I appologize for butchering the lines, because I have some distinct sense that I did. But the ideas are still really nice things to keep in mind. It helps me try to see things from my parents point of veiw when their being rediculous because as much as I'd like to deny it there is logic behind what they say. Not many facts, but definetly logic. I got sacked into going home this weekend so I can talk with them about my future. I have the distinct impression that this will be a future that will involve Geoff in no way, because once they realized he was serious they seemed to become colder to him, and a furture that invloves me looking at graduet schools in the near future. It's way to early to apply but I think we can come to a happy medium with me agreeing to look over a few for the time being and try to narrow down some feilds. I hope that the talk goes well because I am so unbeliveable tired of arguments with them, or being talked at by them and other rediculous stuff. It just shouldn't go on, because last time I checked we were all adults. Well hopefully all goes well, until then all I can do is prepare.

My teacher once asked our class if we would forgive a terrible criminal if he came to us, as he was dieing and asked for forgiveness. I said yes and I was one of the only ones. I won't get too into details because that's not really what this post is about. Basically I belive that people shouldn't have to pay for their mistakes forever. But I seem incabable of stopping the anger I feel for my parents. I won't turn this into a bitching session because I'd be here forever but in short they've done a lot of stuff that I think is really wrong. And I can understand that they are not perfect and everyone is bound to make mistakes. But just when I've almost gotten to the point of forgiving them everything they do something else agrivating...I guess if I can figure out a way to deal with that then I'll be able to move on but it's not easy. Meh.

Title: I Still Love You

Author: In the Shadows

Rating: PG-13

Summary: Severus breaks things off with Harry because he needs some space. When he finally realizes that he can’t get Harry out of his mind he is sure that it is too late. When he chances calling him, however, he finds out what an interesting answering machine message Harry has left for him.

Notes: Answering 01.06 fic challenge. Sorry it's late! >_<

Beta Notes: Thank you very much to the very patient Animula. If not for her this fic would've been much worse. Blame any remaining mistakes on my lousy eye for editing. I'm sorry for the frustration I caused. Thank you once again.

( I Still Love You )